Adoption after the first year of discovery

It has been 1 year, 2 days and a few hours since the adoption bomb was dropped on me via Ancestry. The ANGER and HATE I feel for my adoptive parents is still off the charts. 100% because of their lies and taking my adoption to their graves. The biological family, I met B-cousins, B-dad, B-sisters and B-aunts 5 months before I met B-mom who was wintering in Florida. The first 3 weeks were a wind-whirl. I met with people I never knew existed and there was talk about the summer, get-togethers and meeting the rest of the B-family over the next few months. Of course none of that came to pass. I quickly realized that despite all the sincerity, we were all strangers who really shared no common story other than what might have been if only.... Regardless of the truth about my birth, I can say I am truly grateful for my A-parents. I was really one of the family (they had 4 children after I was adopted) and I was never once any different than the rest. In fact I never even once suspected anything, otherhan when someone told me something was wrong with my birth certificate when I applied for a passport or a copy of my original birth certificate. Every now and then over the past year i feel "bad" about all this hate I have for my A-parents because they were probably the best (NORMAL) parents a kid could have. But all that is erased because of their lies. I really feel like a person without a heritage (I have my history) but I have no roots. Thanks for being here to listen....